Bermuda Jail Journal #1.

Before, I prefaced an event in my life with an article about myself.  If you have read by now, this article is about me getting arrested in Bermuda.  This was one of the most crazy experiences of my life and when I was down there, all I thought about was coming home of course, but now that I've been in and out, I def don't regret this experience.  Not many pple can say they went thru that.  If you haven't read the article, the link will be below my entry. 
So when I did my 30 days in Bermuda Prison, I finally got a journal after 2 weeks of being there.  My case worker was supposed to come down and talk to me, but she only saw me that ONCE in a month.  So I started to write about everything I could think of, the stuff I knew I couldn't forget.  A lot of it honestly is me talking to myself! So here we go, entry #1.  I also did not date these journal entries, I kinda wish i had. 


Sep,2007
"The first thing I thought of when I was brought here, was a quote from the HBO show The Wire.  Avon Barksdale had always said one thing about prison..."there's only two days in prison, the day you get in and the day you get out."  I thought of that for a minute, but it is obviously much easier said than done especially since it was coming from a Tv character "gangsta".  :) I can't imagine being here more than 30 days, hell I can't believe I'm gonna survive 30 days!  Maybe b/c I'm a 25yr old kid, I don't know.  Maybe b/c I'm not in the states. 
Ive only made about two friends in here.  Yes i am the ONLY white girl, which is OK, but still.  I ment Tanya and Raina.  Besides them, you can't trust anyone in here.  This whole place is full of whispers and lies.  I want to do my time and leave quietly - no conflict.  Like I said, I am the only white girl in here (and Im still not sure if that's good for me).  I will not be taken advantage of in here by new girls, or the wacked ones like Harvey aka The bride of Frankenstein, Felicia aka crazy schizo, Burgess aka the embezzler and now Gina, a local girl who seems like she wants to get in trouble. 
This girl named TiTi is great and I like this woman from Queens, Alemor b/c she doesn't talk to me and that's fine.  I'm not sure who I'm really cool with at all, I mean it's jail.  Definitely no friends, but i'll never see them again.  The "bermudians" all know each other or are either related to each other in some way, it's like an inbred country and it's sickening.  Anyway I feel like some pple are nice to my face but i'm positive they're talking about me behind my back.  I know b/c the girls I did talk to were always talking about someone else!
My faith, (I think I have faith), doesn't make me fret over the things I've heard in here or seen.  It can be an ugly, ugly place but sometimes it can be beautiful.  Anyway i don't want to write anymore tonight, lockdown is soon and I want to fall asleep right away.  But first I need to preroll my cigs....shit I miss home."

That entry, sometime in September and early October, (I was released Oct.13, 2007), I was 25.  I'm 28 now, so 3yrs ago I did my time.  A lot of the journal is jibberish and I haven't read this since I got out.  This is theraputic, reading the journal....writing and publishing it.  Even for a blog, yes.  Stay tuned for my next entries throughout the weeks.  And for all you who are behind....read my article below.
http://www.royalgazette.com/siftology.royalgazette/Article/article.jsp?sectionId=60&articleId=7d7a82f30030006