If you've been following, I have been reading entries from my time in a Bermuda prison in 2007. Refer to the article below my entry to see WHY I was in jail.
"My last week has been the toughest. I'm stressed out big time. They'res negative energy flowing my way, questions unanswered that I won't know the answers too until it's release time. I have to count on my mom, dad and American Consolate to get the proper information, even though I'll be the LAST to recieve it. I thought immigration would have seen me by now and let me know what my details are! But no, nothing, not an answer. I'm being deported and I don't even know what the hell is going on. The American Consolate is no help as per my parents.
I don't know if I have Cantine privileges this week and I don't know when they'll stop paying me and take me off chores, and I don't know if I have or will have any money to leave with. I'm very fearful.
All I can do is wait! It's so hard for me, it's like waiting for a drug these questions, the answers - and nothing happens! I just have to put my full faith in God and trust that I'll get the answers I need sooner than later! But somehow, I doubt it. Not God, but b/c I'm nothing but a last name and a prison number. I miss everybody so much it hurts me, literally.
And the more time passes, I'm hating the people/girls around me. I want them to disappear, Id rather be here alone! But I try not to cry or be upset in front of anyone...they feed off other peoples miseries. Except for my girl Tanya.
My father's flight WAS in fact cancelled! My prayers were answered. I'm upset I can't see him of course, but I'm grateful that God listened to me to keep him safe from the storm and flight that would have def crashed. So I'm really sad right now, mourning my father not coming and having no visitors this Sunday or the rest of my time here. I am alone. I'm going to try not to cry RIGHT now and dive back into my book.
I'll be back later."
Again, another entry that seems to be all over the place to me! I hope you readers out there are following ok. Below is the article where it all started.
http://www.royalgazette.com/siftology.royalgazette/Article/article.jsp?sectionId=60&articleId=7d7a82f30030006
What goes on in Kristin's head.
Beware:) & yes, I am endorsing Benadryl for all those who have insomni or problems falling asleep. Two & you're good. That is if you don't have a xanex or another "controlled substance", (prescribed that is!);)
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