Good Morning/Afternoon!

So it 12:51pm on Thursday.  I called into work today b/c last night was a bad night.  Not bad like fighting with my husband or breakdown bad, just bad sleep.  As I said last night, I'm prescribed to Seroquil, a heavy sedative when given in big dosages, which mine is not.  And ever since I've been taking this pill, which I have been on in the past, I've been sleeping well, going to bed at a decent time and waking up good.  But last night was just one of those nights, I guess.  I felt tired at a moment and shoulda just seized it.  But instead, I forced myself to stay up to watch more TV.  Plus my mind was racing with thoughts of of what I want to write about on here.  It seems when I'm supposed to be relaxing, that's when my mind starts to kick in with a million thoughts & when I'm supposed to be working or have time to write, I don't.  I laze around and smoke, drink coffee, check facebook...etc.  But these are the times when I should be writing, when I'm home, instead of laying around.  Even though I feel like I have a hangover from taking an EXTRA Seroquil last night when I saw the clock hit 2:00am.  I didn't expect to wake up and feel drugged.  (That has happened to me before b/c of all the confinement i've been thru during the past 6yrs), but no, it's not OK for me anymore.  I don't like it.  I want to be out at work, not here watching Jennifer's Body...even tho that movie is kinda dope, but not the point.  I'm 28 years old, I shouldve just manned up and went to work even though I don't feel good.  I take everything about myself way too seriously when it comes to my mental health.  Because of medications and past medications, diagnosis & my own mind playing tricks on me, I can take the littlest thing and turn it into something that maybe it's not.  But what I felt this morning WAS real, I'll tell you that.  But at least I'm not slurring my words anymore! 
Now the problem is that I'm out of weed.  Need to get right now and no one is around.  I'm either gonna have to go to Mineola, where I grew up & is only 20min away, or wait for one or two kids around Great Neck, where my apt is, until they either wake up or answer their phone!  I don't want to go to Mineola, but I don't want to wait.  But I'm going to wait as long as I possibly can just b/c I'm that lazy & it's cold.  Also...the headache!  Pot is supposed help headaches right?  At least that's what i've heard!
You know, it's not even that I don't have anything to smoke, it's the oral fixation and the anxiety of waiting.  If i had a bag in my posession, my heart could start beating a little slower and I could even prob go lay down, but since I don't, I'm continuing to make phone calls and see if I can get what I want first.  What a bad quality to have.  But i am a drug addict, there is no arguing that, so I know this comes with the territory.  At least i'm not waiting for blow, like I was 6yrs ago.  That was a horrible time in my life and everyone out there knows you can't compare pot to blow.  Pot should be legallized and probably will when I'm dead...with my luck.  Regardless it still makes me anxious waiting, waiting...
Maybe I'll try to concentrate on Jennifer's Body, I really do like this movie.  Everyone loves Megan Fox & yes she is very hot, but I heard a bit dumb in person.  I've heard her in interviews, she's weird and she says stupid shit.  She even badmouthed Michael Bay, the director of Transformers!  Uhh, he made her...but who know's the truth really? For the record I did not see Transformers.  I'm a movie buff, but i'm not drawn to certain movies.  If I'm hesitating to see it, I know I'm not interested.  She is drop dead gorgeous tho, dumb or not! Which I'm guessing she's not, b/c u can't be in showbiz & not have a brain. She's just a reg gal that's all, but out of every guys or girls league!  Brian Austin Green is a lucky guy & you know what people?...she's lucky too!  I've read so many gossip coloumns or online blogs & no one has anything nice to say about Brian Austin Green.  First off, he's hot too.  He is!  Just because he played David Silver, he's now tainted.  Not like Screech from Saved by the Bell, (damn not THAT tainted), but he's def got a target on his back.  And with Megan Fox on his arm, he's always the butt of the jokes.  I'm happy she married him, they seem like they'll be forever together.  I heard she's like obsessed with HIM! Yes guys, if there are any guys reading...Megan Fox & other woman like Brian Austin Green aka David Silver.  Every man's dream girl is married to him!  Which is kinda funny.  My husband used to be very attracted to Megan Fox & he still is, but after hearing her actually speak in person, he was very unimpressed and it lowered his attraction for her.  Which I don't understand because if James Franco or Jonathan Rhys Meyers sounded dumb or "stupid", I wouldn't give a shit! They are smoking hot! My favorites! Brian Austin Green tho, still not that bad!  And in a fantasy world, I wouldn't mind having Megan Fox's body, that's for sure or her face! I like her candid style too, it's very sexy street casual. 

So Jennifer's Body, that's where that all came from. Haha.  A movie about a beautiful cheerleader who gains an insatiable apetite for human flesh after a hungry demon take control of her body, in the form of a rock band.  Ok, not the best description, but trueish! The band sacrifices her thinking she's a virgin when she's sooo not and in turn she takes on a demon that feeds off teenage boys flesh.  It's sexy & provocative while having the gore it needs to fullfil the plot. Also, with Amanda Seyfried, from movies such as, Dear John, Letters to Juliet, Mama Mia & Alpha Dog.

So yes, I'm recommending my first movie on this blog, besides the soundtracks I've posted (I obviously like those movies or I wouldn't play the soundtrack),  The critics hated it and you'll either love it or hate it, but from Kristin, me...check it out.  Trust me, there are worst movies! 

And of course there are much BETTER movies, which we're not getting into now.  Especially...since my stuff just got here.  Now it's time to cure my headache & get into relax mode.  It's gonna be a long day. 

Maybe I'll be back later guys! But I do just wanna post a pic of my two fave hotties, since they were mentioned.

Jonathan Rhys Meyers & James Franco.  Delicious.  JRM is my free pass, you know if I ever meet him it would be OK to cheat, like if my hubby met Jessica Biel, free pass for him too!:)