Bermuda Jail Journal #6

I am a drug addict.  I went to a foreign prison for a month for a weed charge.  During my incarceration, I kept up with reading & writing.  I kept a journal & now for an outlet, I'm writing down my entries.  Although it sounds like I'm talking too myself or somethings don't make sense...this is the way I was feeling at that point in time, down in Bermuda, not knowing what the hell I was in for.  The article, explaining why they threw me in jail for 30days down there, is below my journal entry, entry #6.  Refer to previous posts for my earlier entries. 

2007
"I think I mentioned Gina, the new girl who came in here shortly after I did.  Watching somone in Adseg, waiting to come over here is kinda nervewracking.  Gina made me nervous.  She had a dyke haircut, so I guess she felt it was her duty to act like a thuggish boy, while trying to be a girl at the same time? LOL!You don't know who this person is that's gonna be thrown into GenPop with you.  I didn't want to meet anymore girls down there, but that's the way it goes, you come, you go out.  New pple at least once a week.  All black still, I am still the only white girl here.  I guess I'm getting used to that, hell - I think Im getting used to this prison! (except for chores, that is).   My cigs are coming out better & better, I can get that filter in no prob...I'm like a prison pro!  At least when I get out, I'll have some new skills to showoff!  I can roll everyones cigs! Save a shitload of money.  They ain't so bad!  I guess when that's all you have is a bag of tobacco & rizzla papers, any type of smoke will do.  It's just conserving the damn tobacco and of course, their are always "grubbers".  And you really don't want to say no to anyone...i mean, just to keep the peace. 
So Gina, has taken to the infamous Harvey very well.  And can I just say, she was warned to stay away from her just like everyone else was, the guards warned and so did the other inmates...but Harvey has a way of pulling pple into her twisted mind games, where even when you don't want to listen, you dare not start something with her.  That's why when she came to visit my cell every so often, I listened to her bullshit.  And then of course,  you got the other girls coming up to you and asking what that was about...just bullshit. Think of a sorority...of prisoners.  I mean I was in a sorority in College, SDT, & this basically is the same thing, except we're criminals.  So where was I?  Oh yeah...Gina was warned and she is still sitting with Harvey at meals & is basically always at her cell nowadays during our free time.  And in that time frame, Gina got into a fight with my girl Tanya, who doesn't fight with anyone.  She's the most positive person, I've said that before.  And it was over a movie.  I never saw Tanya so mad, or Harvey feeding into the fights...almost like she caused it.  Misery does love company.   I don't know why this thing with Gina is not clicking, but she's got to stay away from her.  No one likes her for it, and she's gonna get in trouble.  I actually want them to get locked down for a day or so...it'd be a little how should say, "calmer" in GenPop. 
So the fight between Gina & Tanya was the topic of discussion for the rest of the day.  It wasn't physical, but it could have easily gone there.  And guaranteed Harvey was the one talking about it to everyone.  That's the thing about here again, she tries to create problems that will deflect away from her and then just makes them worse.  Like I said before, she says the same shit over and over again, she's definitely looking for some kinda self validation, she always has a problem with someone or has had a problem with someone in the past & she has no positives at all.  And you need to have some kinda faith in a prison like this...I just don't get it.   I will always have a mental picture of her in my head.  A freakin grown ass woman, it's unbelievable to me.  She is the ultimate epitmay of ugliness, inside and out. 
So now, where I started, I don't like Gina anymore.  Harvey & her need to go to church, and they don't.  I mean who doesn't attend church in prison?
Some girls have definitely gotten cooler with me, letting me know what's up in here and trying to give me some info that I was freaking out about, like immigration or cantene.  There are girls that have been here for a long time and really don't know anything else.  They help ease my mind sometimes, even tho their not ususally right.   (As per the guards!) 
Off topic, but the who the hell cares, I'm alone...I hate looking at myself in here!  The growing pimples, my constant period, my horrible hair - i can't wait to get to be my own self again and I don't want to handwash my own undies!!!
I still just want to at least, look good or decent.  Maybe because there's no way I'm leaving feeling good or decent about myself, if I looked better, maybe I'd feel better?  Again...who knows.  But i will not have a unibrow leaving here, (we're not allowed tweezers or razors), b/c I borrowed Nair from Tanya & I used that between my eyebrows!  And I asked one of the girls to straighten my hair before I left, so I could get on the plane feeling a little normal.  Also, I've obviously lost weight from eating prison food, so I'm a bit skinnier, which is good. 
Just please don't let me get called up to kitchen later!!! (I know I will be).  But after your done with Cantene, which for me will be this Tuesday coming, they're supposed to be no more chores for me and no pay.   Which is fine!  But they're fucking me, guards are telling me that I'm gonna be on chores all week.  The rules say you stop chores one week before you leave, it's in the damn prison handbook, or inmate handbook.  They don't stick to nothing!  Btw, the guards give you one word answers and act clueless most of the time.  Maybe they don't even know, it's just the pple upstairs. 
Ok, I'm done for now and I'm gonna try and get some more reading done.  I've gotten into one author since i've been here, Joy Fielding.  Her books are really good, and they've made my time here easier, so to speak.  But I'm running out of her books & the prison library doesn't have the rest of her collection.  I'm trying to read more Stephen King books, but it's a little harder to concentrate. 
But I will continue to read, no matter what.  B/c if I don't have a book to finish in one day, there is nothing to do.  Nothing but sleep, and I can't risk napping during the day and fucking up at night when I'm locked down.  I want to fall asleep right away every single night, so not one thought can keep me awake and if I don't nap, I can usually accomplish that...with my Trazadone, of course. 
So bye for now, got more than 10 days left.  I'll be back."

Ok, I hope everyone is keeping up ok!!!  Refer to article linked below to find out why I did 30 days in a Bermuda prison.  There are no misdeameanors in that country, just felonies.  And this article defaming, I've said that before and I will not stop saying it.  It's defamation of charachter.  And no one can hear my side from it.  I've never heard of a country publishing articles on tourists that get 30 days in jail, that are longer than the cover of the Daily News.  Check it out.
http://www.royalgazette.com/siftology.royalgazette/Article/article.jsp?sectionId=60&articleId=7d7a82f30030006