I started this blog to let out my passions or hobbies. I've never been a physical or active person meaning excerise, sports, etc.... I realized I wan't & didn't want to be an athlete in Middle school when I was the JV softfball team. Now I had played softball in elemetry school, but I was a kid! But all my friends were either on the JV or Varsity softball team in MS, so I decided to play too, since I had some background. Except for the fact, that I always wanted to be benched, I couldve been good, maybe. I was a catcher, but never wanted to play! So I guess when I realized that being benched was more fun than playing, I was done. So I have all these other things that I can do but can't do anything with! Like play piano for example.
So I wanted an outlet, for when I'm alone or feeling bored, to vent or just write about things that make me happy. Whether it be fashion, music, tv...or even my personal stories. And the reason I've talked fashion so much is b/c I love it. I love Nicole Richie, we know that!), but I love all "celebrity fashion", and I may not be in the industry, but I can talk it. Just like I can review a movie or tv show. C'mon:)
Now, I've kinda become obsessed with whose reading or if anyone is. I may have 6 followers that joined, but I don't even know if they keep up or even check it. I know this is supposed to be for me, but at the same time I wish I could count on some more pple to read, for the feedback nontheless. Am I good writer? Is this the way a blog should look? What can I do better? Is my grammer & punctuation correct? I mean I don't want to sound like an idiot on here;) I'm really into adding images and videos to make it more appealing to readers, but sometimes I get frustrated when I think no one is reading. I mean, I don't even know what the total pageviews means. I have a lot of them, but wtf does that mean? No one joins or comments, so I don't know. But it's ok, I understand...I don't join gossip blogs or anything, hell I joined one blog just b/c another family member started one recently. I don't join Perez Hilton or style blogs just to comment, but I read them...so, again...I really don't know how to tell that people are reading. Whatever. I'll keep going until I think I'm done. It is fun posting pics and writing about shit, but now I actually want people to read, when at first...I was embarassed that I even started blogging. I thought only losers blogged. LOL, not true tho I guess. The internet is more popular than...shit, I don't even know what to compare it to.
Anyway, I guess this post was a little venting one for me:) I just don't know if i'm taking this too far. I thought about deeping into my "hidden" subconscience of my "chaotic" life, where there are many stories to be told: that no ones knows about, besides my very personal experience in Bermuda. Should I bust one out? I mean a real personal story? I could, I'm not ashamed to share. I wouldn't write about other people in my life...just me. Even tho that pic shows that my life is just chill, but I've been thru a lot. I've been arrested twice, I mean I have no luck there. No luck with police. I get caught for everything. Of course there was the fact that I never graduated from college, or when I started using cocaine, how it took me down, & the rehab stint. Plus two or more outpatient centers. Probation...you name it. Even rape, I hate to say. (I hate the word rape, so for my sake, "forced upon" sounds better in my head).
I'm actually a very blunt person, & I'm direct. A lot of pple may hide or can't talk about experiences they've encountered, but me, even tho my feelings are hidden deep, I can talk about them, for the most part. I guess we'll see!:) I mean who cares if no one reads if it makes me happy? & on top of that, I can let some stuff out...so screw it right? I'll do me. The way I want. Personal or completely not about me, it'll be the way I want it and I hope no one will judge. Judgements suck. :)
Ok pple, have a good afternoon! & thanks for listening!
I feel better now, for real:p. So mabye this blog is worth something.
I'm still reading! I always do. (This is Jenn Clingo, by the way lol). I know how you feel about being concerned with whether or not people are reading what you're writing, if your writing is good, etc. I don't know that many people who use blogspot, but I do use www.livejournal.com, and there is a TON of people you can meet on there. I'll post an entry, and have close to 20 comments from 20 different people on a daily basis! If that's something you're into, maybe you should consider moving to a more lively blogging community with a much heavier flow of traffic regarding it's users. If you want to find friends on there, there are communities/groups where you can post an entry telling a little about yourself, and then you'll get people to respond, and they'll add you! I have made many, many friends over the years through that site. You can also choose to make your journal public or private, so it's cool. Check it out if you're bored one day...you could make another blog for more personal stuff or for more meeting friends and getting feedback at www.livejournal.com :) I love that site, but watch out, it's addicting! I love the way you write, and will continue to read all the time! You have been through a lot in life, yet you still manage to remain real, honest, and true to yourself...that's very admirable, hun. Ok, it's 4:30am, lol, gotta run.
ReplyDeleteI really love that you've been keeping up. I was actually gonna ask you if it was still difficult to comment or what not. But I see that you have, even if it was hard...so thank you.
ReplyDeleteThis comment is awesome, you know alot about online shit, I don't even know. Im sure it userfriendly & stuff, but I wish I could just move the entire blog to maybe an online journal or a different blogging community, like you said..but I don't know how to do that either. I'm at a point, where I'm a little stuck, cuz I don't want online journals & a blog...twice the work right? I actually don't know. We can about that in person, when we do meet up, cuz im interested, you obviously know you're shit...and we need that hang out session anyway! But for now, thanks so much and I'm so glad I have one loyal reader!!! But I do get over 100pageviews a day....so I'm not sure what that means, but it sounds good? right? lol
<3 u babe.