Bermuda Jail Journal #6

I am a drug addict.  I went to a foreign prison for a month for a weed charge.  During my incarceration, I kept up with reading & writing.  I kept a journal & now for an outlet, I'm writing down my entries.  Although it sounds like I'm talking too myself or somethings don't make sense...this is the way I was feeling at that point in time, down in Bermuda, not knowing what the hell I was in for.  The article, explaining why they threw me in jail for 30days down there, is below my journal entry, entry #6.  Refer to previous posts for my earlier entries. 

2007
"I think I mentioned Gina, the new girl who came in here shortly after I did.  Watching somone in Adseg, waiting to come over here is kinda nervewracking.  Gina made me nervous.  She had a dyke haircut, so I guess she felt it was her duty to act like a thuggish boy, while trying to be a girl at the same time? LOL!You don't know who this person is that's gonna be thrown into GenPop with you.  I didn't want to meet anymore girls down there, but that's the way it goes, you come, you go out.  New pple at least once a week.  All black still, I am still the only white girl here.  I guess I'm getting used to that, hell - I think Im getting used to this prison! (except for chores, that is).   My cigs are coming out better & better, I can get that filter in no prob...I'm like a prison pro!  At least when I get out, I'll have some new skills to showoff!  I can roll everyones cigs! Save a shitload of money.  They ain't so bad!  I guess when that's all you have is a bag of tobacco & rizzla papers, any type of smoke will do.  It's just conserving the damn tobacco and of course, their are always "grubbers".  And you really don't want to say no to anyone...i mean, just to keep the peace. 
So Gina, has taken to the infamous Harvey very well.  And can I just say, she was warned to stay away from her just like everyone else was, the guards warned and so did the other inmates...but Harvey has a way of pulling pple into her twisted mind games, where even when you don't want to listen, you dare not start something with her.  That's why when she came to visit my cell every so often, I listened to her bullshit.  And then of course,  you got the other girls coming up to you and asking what that was about...just bullshit. Think of a sorority...of prisoners.  I mean I was in a sorority in College, SDT, & this basically is the same thing, except we're criminals.  So where was I?  Oh yeah...Gina was warned and she is still sitting with Harvey at meals & is basically always at her cell nowadays during our free time.  And in that time frame, Gina got into a fight with my girl Tanya, who doesn't fight with anyone.  She's the most positive person, I've said that before.  And it was over a movie.  I never saw Tanya so mad, or Harvey feeding into the fights...almost like she caused it.  Misery does love company.   I don't know why this thing with Gina is not clicking, but she's got to stay away from her.  No one likes her for it, and she's gonna get in trouble.  I actually want them to get locked down for a day or so...it'd be a little how should say, "calmer" in GenPop. 
So the fight between Gina & Tanya was the topic of discussion for the rest of the day.  It wasn't physical, but it could have easily gone there.  And guaranteed Harvey was the one talking about it to everyone.  That's the thing about here again, she tries to create problems that will deflect away from her and then just makes them worse.  Like I said before, she says the same shit over and over again, she's definitely looking for some kinda self validation, she always has a problem with someone or has had a problem with someone in the past & she has no positives at all.  And you need to have some kinda faith in a prison like this...I just don't get it.   I will always have a mental picture of her in my head.  A freakin grown ass woman, it's unbelievable to me.  She is the ultimate epitmay of ugliness, inside and out. 
So now, where I started, I don't like Gina anymore.  Harvey & her need to go to church, and they don't.  I mean who doesn't attend church in prison?
Some girls have definitely gotten cooler with me, letting me know what's up in here and trying to give me some info that I was freaking out about, like immigration or cantene.  There are girls that have been here for a long time and really don't know anything else.  They help ease my mind sometimes, even tho their not ususally right.   (As per the guards!) 
Off topic, but the who the hell cares, I'm alone...I hate looking at myself in here!  The growing pimples, my constant period, my horrible hair - i can't wait to get to be my own self again and I don't want to handwash my own undies!!!
I still just want to at least, look good or decent.  Maybe because there's no way I'm leaving feeling good or decent about myself, if I looked better, maybe I'd feel better?  Again...who knows.  But i will not have a unibrow leaving here, (we're not allowed tweezers or razors), b/c I borrowed Nair from Tanya & I used that between my eyebrows!  And I asked one of the girls to straighten my hair before I left, so I could get on the plane feeling a little normal.  Also, I've obviously lost weight from eating prison food, so I'm a bit skinnier, which is good. 
Just please don't let me get called up to kitchen later!!! (I know I will be).  But after your done with Cantene, which for me will be this Tuesday coming, they're supposed to be no more chores for me and no pay.   Which is fine!  But they're fucking me, guards are telling me that I'm gonna be on chores all week.  The rules say you stop chores one week before you leave, it's in the damn prison handbook, or inmate handbook.  They don't stick to nothing!  Btw, the guards give you one word answers and act clueless most of the time.  Maybe they don't even know, it's just the pple upstairs. 
Ok, I'm done for now and I'm gonna try and get some more reading done.  I've gotten into one author since i've been here, Joy Fielding.  Her books are really good, and they've made my time here easier, so to speak.  But I'm running out of her books & the prison library doesn't have the rest of her collection.  I'm trying to read more Stephen King books, but it's a little harder to concentrate. 
But I will continue to read, no matter what.  B/c if I don't have a book to finish in one day, there is nothing to do.  Nothing but sleep, and I can't risk napping during the day and fucking up at night when I'm locked down.  I want to fall asleep right away every single night, so not one thought can keep me awake and if I don't nap, I can usually accomplish that...with my Trazadone, of course. 
So bye for now, got more than 10 days left.  I'll be back."

Ok, I hope everyone is keeping up ok!!!  Refer to article linked below to find out why I did 30 days in a Bermuda prison.  There are no misdeameanors in that country, just felonies.  And this article defaming, I've said that before and I will not stop saying it.  It's defamation of charachter.  And no one can hear my side from it.  I've never heard of a country publishing articles on tourists that get 30 days in jail, that are longer than the cover of the Daily News.  Check it out.
http://www.royalgazette.com/siftology.royalgazette/Article/article.jsp?sectionId=60&articleId=7d7a82f30030006

Justin's Beat Box (Madion Square Garden New York) Live

I know it's a lot of Justin tonight, but I just want to include that he can beatbox like I've never seen before.   Combined with his sexy dance moves, he's irresistable.  This Madison Square Concert is a few yrs back, i'm not sure how long...but you can tell he looks younger.  And ready to break the fuck out.  Which he did.  Thank you Nysnc for creating Justin.  So here's a clip of our sexy man beatboxing during one of  his concerts.  Just the beatboxing will make you drool.

Justin Timberlake - Like I Love You (MTV Video Music Awards 2002) & A.J.

The Backstreet Boys, they were a group.  Yes, Brian, AJ & Nick did do most of the singing, but NSYNC messed up by picking Justin, they created a star.  An amazing star who now dominates the music industry.  Let alone that he is def the hottest.  I feel that AJ from the Backstreet Boys coulda done something on his own.  He has the same talent, he can dance, he has a distinct amazing voice...basically, the image. AJ was my first boyband love, I will always be loyal. Again he's a great entertainer and a super dancer, right up there with Justin, which we all know is NOT easy!  Justin is better than all his dancers! I have to say that AJ is too tho! But the BSB's faded and JT blew up. When his solo albums came out, I was def one the girls dying to watch is every move.  And that's the way I still feel about AJ, but Justin is still present.  Maybe that's the difference.  The only thing that I can't stand, is that EVERY other girl is obsessed with him too. That's another difference with the BSB's, so many girls liked Nick, Brian or even Kevin & Howie:)  Not every girl was obsessed with AJ like I was.  But I don't like debating that AJ was the best, b/c I'll always win.  So without further adou (aduei)? lol...Here's sexy JT moving around to Like I Love U.  Boy that man can move.  (And stay tuned for more posts like these), they'll be random:)

Below is a pic of JT and AJ, two sexy men. Oh and I have that tattoo that AJ has on his stomach pple!

JT

AJ.  I have the same tatto he has on his stomach.  Yes, I got it b/c of him & I love it.  Anyone can guess what it is?  It's pretty easy.  But some pple actually ask me!
Watch AJ with the BSB's in concert in my previous post. 

"How I dress like Nicole"....Again!

I've posted before about how I dress like Nicole Richie.  We all know by now that she is my fashion icon, for some reason.  Anyway, if I can get away with something she's wearing, or able to afford it, I'll try and pull it off.  Now, in my opinion, obviously Nicole always pulls it off better.  I of course, can pick out any flaw of mine & to be honest, I don't think I'm as pretty as Nicole Richie.  I mean, I'm not a dog, but I do have to work to look good.  And there are a ton of things I would change about myself if i could.   I don't wan't to look like someone else, to clarify, but of course....little changes would never hurt, right?  I'm sure everyone wants to change or "modify" something about themselves physically, & mentally for that matter.  I would like to be as thin as Nicole Richie, even tho some debate she's too skinny.  And even tho I am a skinny girl, I am not as small as her.  She's just cute and yes there was a time when she was too skinny, but I never believed she had an eating disorder.  I mean every woman fluctuates, some more than others.  I definitely am one of those girls who fluctuate.  I can be really skinny, but if I don't watch it, I could put the pounds on.  Anyway, I've had a smaller physique since college.  I was a little heavier in high school, but present day...I'm good.  (I think I'm getting off the topic here, which is so easy to do on this thing). 


So back to dressing like Nicole.  I also want to say once again, that I there are not many outfits that I have exactly the same of.  I have a lot of the same jeans, JET jeans that we Nicole loves to wear.  I try to get the labels I can afford, (which aren't much!) that I see her in.  And jeans are in that price range.  And you obviously know by now if you've been reading, that I'm collecting her line piece by piece.  If it was affordable, I'd own everything by now.  But her cardys, shoes, shirts & accessories are sometimes hard to pull of.  There just not in my price range.  So I have to do with what I have, which is more than most people.   Like I've said before, I'm very lucky.  Some people can't even afford to buy any of her stuff!  So I'm grateful I'm able to buy the brand name jeans & other celeb brands for example, American Apparel, which also pertains to this post.  So before I go off rambling about the inspiration I get from her, I'll post the pics...then conclude. 

Here's the first pic I got to see of the JET splatter jeans.  I was already a fan of JET b/c of Nicole and when I saw this pic, I knew I had to have them.  Even tho I wasn't sure I could pull it off.  I mean she's so small & to me, looks good in everything.  But when I see something I want, that I CAN get, I'll get it...so I did. 

So in these posts, as you can see from the headline, I'm kinda almost wearing the same thing.  Like I said, that doesn't happen that often, but If I can pull off a Nicole "look", I'll try. 
So I'm wearing the JET splatter jeans, which aren't my fave.  The fit is a little loose and no matter how skinny I am, I still think I look a little chubby.  But whatever.  Anyway, I'm also wearing an American Apparel burnout long sleeve tee.  And underneath, a Fluxus white tank.  Also seen on Nicole in previous outfits.  I'm pretty sure her shirt is American Apparel, just not the same color.  If you check my celeb style guides on the toolbar, such as http://www.jessicastyle.com/., it should tell you what kinda shirt she's wearing, unless it's unidentifed.  Which is sometimes common with these celebs. 
I'm wearing my Minnetonka black flats, which I've talked about before and also seen on Nicole before.  Although, in her pic, she's clearly wearing her popular black Lanvin flats.  She's always wearing them too, and I can NOT afford that brand.  Unfortunately! 

Her jeans don't look as baggy, they fit better on her and look better.  Or maybe I'm just too hard on myself?  Nah!

What I'm saying in my conclusion of this post, which wasn't supposed to be that long, is that we can all pull off the celebs looks if we want.  Even if we don't have there means.  Presentation for a woman, or for me, is very important.  It's not how pretty you are, it's how you carry yourself and put yourself together.  You don't have to look cheap.  (That wasn't supposed to be offensive, either)...it's just that some girls out there do.  And they could do so much better, even if their shopping at Forever21 & not Kitson, per say.  You can get splatter jeans everywhere now, they don't have to be JET.  Just make sure that when you leave the house, you feel confident.  And then you'll look better.  Again, this is all in my opinion.  I guess maybe because if I didn't have any fashion sense, I would be ugly. 

And again to clarify one more time, Nicole's fashion inspires me.  I do not want to actually be her.  LOL.

Eclipse Soundtrack 11.-Unkle ft The Black Angels - With You In My Head

I've already posted some of my fave songs from the Twilight Saga.  I've posted two songs from New Moon, "Hearing Damage" & I forget the other's name:) But it's a Bon Iver & St. Vincent Song, I know that.  Anyway, I've also posted "Let me Sign", from Twilight.  I plan to keep going.  I'm not done with my fave songs from "Twilight" or "New Moon, but this time I'm gonna post a song from "Eclipse". 
Have to mix it up a bit!  You can see that I've already shared a love for these soundtracks, as well as many others...but I'm concentrating on these for now.  My head will get all mixed up if I post from different soundtracks.   I need a theme.  Or maybe you could call it an outline.  So to continue with my outline, I picked my fave song from "Eclipse".  It caught my ear during a dope part of the movie, and what do I always say?  Music makes everything all the more better.  And a dope part of a movie, can make a song that you normally wouldn't listen too, very appealing.  Of course, this is my opinion.  Anyway...Song Please!

This is the scene where the song is playing.  Jasper know's the most about killing Victoria's Newborn Vampires.  So he has to train the wolves & his family how to fight...as a team.  Actually, it makes Jasper really hot in this one.  I mean Edward is usually my fave, but Jasper in this one, hot.  He's strong & confident and that makes him attractive.  He also eerily looks a bit like the Joker, right?  Anyway this is one of my fave scenes.  The song makes it better, obviously. 
And one more thing that I will be discussing eventually, will be how I hated the NEW Victoria.  I really didn't like that they switched her out.  Actually, I hated it!

So, let's concentrate on Jasper, or whatever Cullen you want!

Nicole Richie & Joel Madden Wedding Pics & More Info...

These are the first exclusive pictures from Nicole Richie's & Joel Madden's glamourous wedding, last Saturday. 
Nicole was all smiles a week later out for dinner with friends.  She also explained why they incorporated an elephant in their ceremony.  The elephant was brought in for good luck, simple good luck and good energy.  Not for entertainment purposes or for the media, but for them. 
Nicole, having many wardrobe changes as I said before in previous posts, wore a Marchesa gorgeous gown, inspired by Grace Kelly's iconic & unforgettable wedding dress.  The elephant & this dress in particular, were two things Nicole always said she wanted for her big day.

Tai, the elephant, for Good Luck. 



I'm sure Nicole, Joel, & their beautiful family won't need much luck! But I guess better safe than sorry, if you can afford it!

Stunning.

Both children took place in the ceremony, Harlow & Sparrow.  As you can see from the caption in the pic above, it was very important for them that their children witnessed this once in a lifetime moment. 

$10,000 Sylvia Weinstock Wedding Cake.

And before I conclude this post about the wedding, everyone also wants to know the gossip about why Paris Hilton was not in attendance with her fellow celebs.  Nicole has been heard to said that they wanted to keep it intimate, only very close friends & family.  Now reports are coming out that Nicole didn't want Paris to steal attention away from her day.  The two have drifted apart for sure and Nicole was sure that Paris would try to be the center of attention.  Although Paris is acting like she doesn't care, partying it up in Vegas and heard saying she didn't want to go the stupid wedding anyway.  See when I hear statements like that, that makes me think that she DID care.  She should just shut her mouth.  And the rumour mill will fly with this.  I'm sure they'll say anything to get another Paris Hilton & Nicole Richie "scandal".  So i don't believe shit.  My own conclusion is in fact, that they grew apart...and being a married woman myself,  you only want the day to be drama free & how could that wedding been drama free without Paris there?  Seriously? She is drama.  I guess you know I'm on "Team Nicole." :)

So let's just say once again, Congragulations to the happy couple and may all their dreams that haven't come true yet:)...come true! I love them! 

I hope I covered everything pple want to know about the wedding, if not....COMMENT!  please? LOL

WinterKate Jasmine cardy in Frankie print...Discussion.

This was the first pic I seen of the WinterKate Jasmine Cardy.  I've talked about this particular cardy in previous posts.  It comes in two colors, Frankie print, & Ivory print.  I have both.  Now if you look at the information on this Frankie print, it says it's grey.  It looks grey on Nicole, in the picutre.  I mean she's wearing a red Lovequotes scarf, grey JET jeans, & black suede ankle boots.  I really thought when I recieved the product, it would look exactly like the pic.  The ivory Jasmine cardy was exactly what I thought it was gonna look like from pictures. 

But when the frankie print came, it looked almost brown with beige feathers, as opposed to the picture above where the cardy looks charcoal or grey with white feathers.  So i thought maybe it was just the picture that made it look grey, the flash or something.  So I tried to match exactly what Nicole was wearing above, and it wasn't looking right at all!  So I looked up some more pics of Ashley Tisdale wearing the cardy, as well as Miley Cyrus.  There is also another pic of Nicole wearing this cardy and to be honest, the thing looks different in every photograph!  Take a look...

Frankie print above on Nicole.  See, It looks kinda different from the first pic! It still looks grey, but idk...something is def different! Or maybe it's just me.  Take another look....

See in this pic of Ashely Tisdale, she's wearing almost nude shoes paired with this cardy, not black.  It actually doesn't even look like black shoes would match the cardy!  To me it still looks greyish, but still not the same as the other pics I've seen.  Or maybe it's just the way it was photographed...but again, take a look below....

The cardy on Miley Cyrus def looks different or at least a BIT different.  It's def darker in this picture & she's paired it with black shoes.  For a second when I got mine in the mail, I thought there might have been more than the Frankie & Ivory print, b'/c to me the cardy does not look grey in the picture.  Looks good, but not grey.  Or at least it look different on her, than Nicole or even Ashley for that matter.  Like I said...am I crazy?

The WinterKate Jasmine cardy in Frankie Print, but @ any my celeb link on the side toolbar, or when in doubt http://www.singer22.com/.  Retail price $229.00, (about).  It almost looks grey, but still more of a brownish tint to it. 

In the previous posts about the HH & WinterKate items I already have, I posted pictures of myself in the ivory cardy & didn't have any pics of myself in the Frankie cardy....until now. 

So with no inspiration from the celebrities caught wearing this cardy, including Nicole this time, I decided to go generic with it & see how it photographs.  Maybe it would look as it did on Nicole in my pictures.  So I wore this to my work holiday party this past weekend.  It was only a matter of time I wore it.   I love it to death, no matter what the hell color it is...I just try not to wear these cardys too often considering they're one of a kind and pretty expensive. 
So yes, I went generic with it.  I paired it with JET dark skinny bolt pocket jeans, (also seen on Nicole), Minnetonka moccasions in black, (none of my nude or brown shoes that also looked like it would match, they either weren't in season or something else was off.)  I figured you can't loose with black moccasions, Nicole has taught us that.  WinterKate actually came out with a shoe that looks exactly like the Minnetonka style, Nicole's style.  You can catch Nicole in Minnnetonka items all the time.  To check that out, visit http://www.celebritystyleguide.com/, or http://www.jessicastyle.com/. 
Under neath I wore a BcBg plain tee, tucked into my jeans....I had definitely decided that a black tee did not go well underneath, even if it was layered.  I put on some of her jewelry, the HH cocktail ring, tigers eye ring, & starburst necklace and I was ready to go.  Generically, of course. 

My father & I.

I think it looked great in the pics, I def did a good job...like always:)  But no matter what I still don't think it looks the same in any picture.  Look in a closeup pic of me wearing it below...

My mother & I.

Don't the feather's look tan, & the cardy look brown compared to seen on Ashley & Nicole, as where Miley Cyrus's almost looks more the black side?

(Also please don't pay attention to that man in the pic, he's one of my father's employee's son, this is not, I repeat, this is not my husband!)

I'm gonna show one more pic, full body showing how the outfit paired with the popular Minnetonka moccasions, buy @ http://www.zappos.com/ or any of my celeb links, along with other Minnetonka items. 

So we got the JET skinny jeans, (def endorsed by Nicole!), the plain tee tucked in, and the Frankie cardy...Now I love it, but this is the question of the day.  Seriously, is it just me or is the cardy changing colors?!!

Opinions & discussions open!

I Thoght It Was Just Gossip...

When I first read the headlines, I didn't believe it.  Ryan Reynolds and Scarlett Johansson broke up?  No way, I thought.  First off, since they've been together, you could tell that this was a different couple.  A couple that was a little mysterious to the world.  First, their both single and in the tabloids a bit, (not much though compared to others like Britney, Paris, Lindsay, etc...),  but not together at all.  They always kept it under the radar with paparazzo, so when they got together & STAYED together...a lot of people didn't see it coming.  I didn't see it coming and I try to keep up with the celebrity gossip.  But I thought it was cool, they went well together.  Both very, very hot, she's vuloptuous & he's dreamy...every man on this earth wants a piece of Scarlett Johansson.  You'll see.  Ask any guy and he'll tell you he wants to f**ck Scarlett Johansson, (pardon my french).  And most girls, including myself want a piece of Ryan too. 

I mean we kinda all know that Scarlett is the bigger celeb, she's been nominated for several Golden Globe Awards, won 1 at least, I'm sure, & is regarded highly in the film industry.  But Ryan is getting there too, hell he's already there. What am I talking about? Yeah, we all know where he came from & what he was known for...Van Wilder, of course. Every one thought he was so hot! I mean he is, but Van Wilder was just one movie and he wasn't regarded as a real actor yet.  And then he did some films that didn't do so well like "Blade 3" or "Just Friends", which I happen to like, with Amy Smart.  But he caught my eye in the movie, "Waiting".

Great movie that I'm guessing didn't do so well at the box office & should have.  Great cast, it's funny, entertaining, & they've got Ryan Reynolds on top of that.  Now besides being sexy, this guy is actually funny!  I thought Van Wilder was an idiot, I mean I liked the character, but it could get old.  That's why he probably didn't do the sequels to the newer Van Wilder movies.  Smart move.  But he def is a funny actor more than a serious one.  He can make me laugh out loud.  "Waiting" & "Just Friends", he did a great comedic job in, even if the movies didn't score high at the box office.  But I guess it was more than just my eye he was catching, because he then blew up & is still on a roll, with movies like "Definitely, Maybe", "The Proposal", & X-Men Origins". He's also going to be starring the in the upcoming "Green Lantern" superhero film, with Blake Lively. 

Ryan

Scarlett on the other hand, we don't even have to name her movies.  We all know what she's gonna be in right away, (it's on the news). Everyone loves her too.  She's a great actress who has scored a lot of sought after roles & is in high demand for any movie. Women want to be like her, & men want to be with her.  She also sorta broke a standard for the way young girls in Hollywood could still make it big in that industry without being stick skinny.  She has boobs, she has an ass!  Men eat it up.  She is gorgeous.  They looked great together, (even tho they were barely caught together on camera), they were private, & we thought they had it all. Looks, money, personality...they were a powercouple.


So now it's cheating rumors I'm hearing.  He may have had some fleeting thing with Blake Lively apparently, (not confirmed, of course).  Isn't she dating Penn Badgely? So who knows if that's true.  But I've read the people closest to the couple say they were having marital problems way before this came to a head.  Apparently they tried therapy & tried to work things out a couple of times.  I wouldn't have known that 2 hrs ago.  There were never any rumors of them having trouble in the past, I think.  So I think that's why people are shocked. Or I was shocked. Maybe even Scarlett herself, who is been seen wearing her ring still. 
I wish them both well together or not, they both have great careers...too bad it didn't work out.  All these couples in Hollywood.  It's like they're doomed.  Now they'll be new rumors every single day about them & their new antics on the social scene.  Everyone is gonna want to know who they're gonna date next.  Right?
Since that's all I've got to say about this topic for the moment, but if I hear any more cheating gossip, I'll let you know as soon as possible...but, can I just tell you one more short story?  A story that I'm sure most of you had heard, b/c it wasn't that big of a secret.  Both parties took responsibility & admitted getting it on in some way shape or form.  These two parties, one of course being Scarlett Johannsson & the other Bencio Del Toro.  Bencio? I mean I love him, but I couldn't believe when I heard interviews of them saying that they hooked up in an elevator at the Chateau Marmont Hotel.  She quoted it was "unsanitary".  I bet!  I mean it was 3:30 in the morning after the Oscars and they were reportedly all over each other.  And she also quoted, "we were making out or having sex or something..."  People thought it was crazy because they just didn't care who saw!  Although it didn't turn out to be anything but just an elevator romp with my man, Bencio. 
Oh, I love that story. 

Bencio Del Toro

Ms. Johansson "if your nasty" :)

That's a memorable celebrity hookup moment. Ha:)





Nicole Richie and Joel Madden Wed!

So I'm sure everyone knows by now that Nicole Richie & Joel Madden tighed the knot recently.  We all knew it was coming, but they def kept it a secret.  I'm sure they had plenty of memories.  From what I read, which hasn't been much...I'm not sure how many details were revealed yet.  (And I'm not on the computer all the time, even tho it may seem that way!), so all I heard was that she had many wardrobe changes and there was an elephant involved?

The winter themed wedding had a glamorous feel to it.  The special attendie, Tai, the elephant was brought to father's, Lionel Richie's, place before the ceremony. 
Their children took place in the ceremony as flower girl & page boy.  What the hell is a page boy? Ok...and Benji Madden, Joel's bro served as best man.  Among other attendies were Gwen Stefani, Gavin Rossdale, Samantha Ronson, (poor Lindsay - (insert sarcasm))., Kris Jenner, & Godfather Quincy Jones. 
Nicole apparently wore a custom made gown over $20,000 with of course a vintage Chanel thingy, umm...dress, I think!, over her gown.  Of course Nicole would add vintage to her gown, it's so her.  I love it.
According to what else I read there were tents, huge, big, tents covering a swimming pool. 
Just very old school glamour.  So Congrats Nicole & Joel, we all wish you well! Keep doing what you're doing, especially designing Nicole! :)

Going too far?...

This is my normal station in my apt.  That side of the couch, smoking and watching tv. 
I started this blog to let out my passions or hobbies.  I've never been a physical or active person meaning excerise, sports, etc.... I realized I wan't & didn't want to be an athlete in Middle school when I was the JV softfball team.  Now I had played softball in elemetry school, but I was a kid! But all my friends were either on the JV or Varsity softball team in MS, so I decided to play too, since I had some background. Except for the fact, that I always wanted to be benched, I couldve been good, maybe.  I was a catcher, but never wanted to play! So I guess when I realized that being benched was more fun than playing, I was done. So I have all these other things that I can do but can't do anything with!  Like play piano for example. 
So I wanted an outlet, for when I'm alone or feeling bored, to vent or just write about things that make me happy.  Whether it be fashion, music, tv...or even my personal stories. And the reason I've talked fashion so much is b/c I love it. I love Nicole Richie, we know that!), but I love all "celebrity fashion", and I may not be in the industry, but I can talk it.  Just like I can review a movie or tv show.  C'mon:)
Now, I've kinda become obsessed with whose reading or if anyone is.  I may have 6 followers that joined, but I don't even know if they keep up or even check it.  I know this is supposed to be for me, but at the same time I wish I could count on some more pple to read, for the feedback nontheless.  Am I good writer?  Is this the way a blog should look? What can I do better? Is my grammer & punctuation correct? I mean I don't want to sound like an idiot on here;) I'm really into adding images and videos to make it more appealing to readers, but sometimes I get frustrated when I think no one is reading.  I mean, I don't even know what the total pageviews means.  I have a lot of them, but wtf does that mean?  No one joins or comments, so I don't know.  But it's ok, I understand...I don't join gossip blogs or anything, hell I joined one blog just b/c another family member started one recently.  I don't join Perez Hilton or style blogs just to comment, but I read them...so, again...I really don't know how to tell that people are reading.  Whatever. I'll keep going until I think I'm done.   It is fun posting pics and writing about shit, but now I actually want people to read, when at first...I was embarassed that I even started blogging.  I thought only losers blogged. LOL, not true tho I guess.  The internet is more popular than...shit, I don't even know what to compare it to. 
Anyway, I guess this post was a little venting one for me:) I just don't know if i'm taking this too far.  I thought about deeping into my "hidden" subconscience of my "chaotic" life, where there are many stories to be told: that no ones knows about, besides my very personal experience in Bermuda. Should I bust one out?  I mean a real personal story? I could, I'm not ashamed to share.  I wouldn't write about other people in my life...just me.  Even tho that pic shows that my life is just chill, but I've been thru a lot.  I've been arrested twice, I mean I have no luck there.  No luck with police.  I get caught for everything.  Of course there was the fact that I never graduated from college, or when I started using cocaine, how it took me down, & the rehab stint.  Plus two or more outpatient centers.  Probation...you name it.  Even rape, I hate to say.  (I hate the word rape, so for my sake, "forced upon" sounds better in my head).
I'm actually a very blunt person, & I'm direct.  A lot of pple may hide or can't talk about experiences they've encountered, but me, even tho my feelings are hidden deep, I can talk about them, for the most part.  I guess we'll see!:) I mean who cares if no one reads if it makes me happy? & on top of that, I can let some stuff out...so screw it right? I'll do me.  The way I want.  Personal or completely not about me, it'll be the way I want it and I hope no one will judge.  Judgements suck.  :)
Ok pple, have a good afternoon! & thanks for listening!
I feel better now, for real:p.  So mabye this blog is worth something.

Robert Pattinson - "Let Me Sign" from Twilight video & my personal thoughts...

I wanted to post another song from the Twilight Saga movies.  I've always said that so far, up to Eclipse, all the soundtracks have been great.  They have the best music and what do I always say? Music can make a movie.  For me at least, I listen to music in background of movies or TV shows, it's important to me.  I like finding songs from movies or shows that are really hard to find, not on albums.  B/c for me, when I listen to that song, I have a picture in my head.  It reminds me of that hot part in the movie or it reminds me of a character that I like.  So, anyway,  I guess the point I'm making is that I love music.  But who don't, right? But I can zone out to music, even when I'm watching a show...if I hear a song I love, I can't get it out of my head until I have it.  Then I play it out:) And that's what it's been like for The Twilight, New Moon, & Eclipse Soundtrack.  I love these movies.  I love Kristen Stewart & I love Rob Pattinson.  I like the whole cast, actually.  Rob Pattinson is just hot, especially as Edward Cullen.  I've only seen him in one other movie called "Remember Me" and it was really good, actually really good and he played a great character, obviously completely different from Edward. But to me, he's just Edward Cullen right now just b/c of the damn saga! I'd like to see him in more roles in the future.   Anyway, Kristen Stewart is just cool.  I like her style too...Jbrand jeans, converse sneakers, rocker tee, she's inspired me to pull that off looks like that every now & then, while combining all different kinds of fashion.  The "classy" rocker look, for example! LOL.  (I'm totally getting off topic, again). 
Where was I about this song?  Oh yeah, all the soundtracks are bangin.  I'm not really into alternative rock, like Z100 type music, but these songs (most being rock or triphop), are different.  I've shared two songs off the New Moon Soundtrack, Hearing Damage, a techno sort of song with a beat, & a Bon Iver & St. Vincent song, which is more triphop or a "love", (zone out song).  Sometimes a slow song can be harder to listen to if you're not in the mood.  I mean i love driving to songs that get me pumped, but when u hear a slong song and then to associate it with Bella & Edward, makes it so the much better.  That goes for any movie and or TV soundtrack. So I picked a slower song from the first soundtrack, Twilight.  Oh yeah, I said that! The song is sung by star, Rob Pattinson.  He's always had is music, so i've heard.  He actually has another song on the soundtrack.  He's not bad, but I'm not sure.  I haven't heard that much, but he seems super talented & very musically inclined. But he's a movie star to me first and it's hard to picture him in a band sometimes.  Almost like Jared Leto, (although Jared Leto now is winning Mtv awards now).  So again...this song caught my ear while watching the movie.
It's an emotional part and the song is perfect for the scene.  The second I heard it, I was like, ok I need this and when I saw who it was, I was like...what?  But the song is not long,  & i wish it were.  Rob really hit's it out of the part with this song, called "Let me Sign".

The infamous scene...

You know what's funny, before I went on youtube and pulled the video, I googled about the song and the results I got were pretty much all from http://www.ask.com/, meaning there were about a million people asking what song was playing during that scene.  Even on some other websites...the headlines were, "what's the name of the song, etc...".  And that's what I was thinking immediately when I saw the movie,  I guess there are more pple like me.  But maybe not as determined to get it right away:) .  The way I found the song was by downloading the Twilight soundtrack on itunes asap. Maybe it was luck,&  maybe it wasn't, but that particular downloaded album had a bonus track, which of course is the song in question.  I played it over and over.  But since I loved the soundtrack so much and I was out of an ipod for two months a while back, I bought it as well.  And my bonus track, not on the CD!  I was so surprised and thanked God that I'd got it on my ipod.  They should put it on the soundtrack, it's a dope track.  It can bring me to tears...but I also picture what's going on in the movie while I'm listening, (that's why).  Anyway, hope you like it....I know everyone loves Rob Pattinson already!

They're both smokin.

And since everyone loves the dating rumors and since they try so hard to hide themselves from the cameras, it's a thrill when they do catch them...even tho it's rare.  Take a peak. 

I like his style too.  They go well together.  It looks like they both don't care what they're wearing and they pull it off great.  I mean you know their so called "ratty" clothes, (like someone would say about The Olsen Twins wardrobe), aren't cheap.  But again, it's not about how expensive, its how you pull it off.  Like the next pic of Kristen, since I got myself talkin about style...let me post a pic of her wearing a plain back hooded sweatshirt, skinny jeans, & converse sneakers.  She still looks like a star to me. 

Ok, I think I've talked myself to death and i would like to get stoned, just like Kristen does sometimes as per the rumour mill! Hey it's all good. 
Goodnight fellow bloggers, if any.
Hope you like the song, that apparently is really hard to find.  And watch the movies...if you haven't!

Oops I messed up!

...of course I go to delete comments on my comment list, just thinking it would delete there, not under the post itself!  Now all the comments that my friends/family had made are gone!

Nice work, Kristin...guess I'll keep learning as I go.  At least it wasn't a comment from someone I didn't know & that was getting into my blog, following up on it.  I would have been very disappointed to not see that one.  But I'm still not sure anyone is reading, cuz I get no comments except from the pple in my life & my 6 followers are my friends/family...so far!
Also, I know I've only posted 5 jail journals so far, but def stay tuned for more...that journal is so full.  I know I talk about so much more on here, but I don't want anyone to think I don't have Bermuda Jail Journal #6 coming up this week.
Join up guys!  I won't disappoint! HA!

Nicole Richie on Ellen!

Nicole recently made an appearance on the Ellen Degenerous show this month.  She looked beautiful back as a blonde & for the first time in a while I haven't seen her without bangs.  But she always looks good, in my opinion. 
This interview is really fun, def more casual than a late night show...but Ellen is big and for her to make  a splash on Ellen is a great honor.  Just to be a guest is an honor. 
This interview, like I said, is recent.  Nicole talks more about her kids, Joel, the holidays & even a brief update on her recent paparazzo problems. 
I look at her and I can't believe this woman has two kids, I mean look at her! I know some pple think she's too skinny, but she has been filling out a bit, while still maintaing her tiny figure...even after two kids.  Damn that's my wish: to look good while being a mommy, a young mommy when the time comes.  I don't want to lose my fashion or let myself go, just because I have kids.  I know celebrities like Nicole are forced to get back into shape, but Nicole's body looked liked it just went back to the way it was.  I mean both her baby bumps were pretty small! I didn't see any weight gain on the face, ass, or legs.  Just her belly, for both Harlow and Sparrow.  I want that too, when I get pregnant, just a belly...no weight gain anywhere else, (that show's at least!).  And especially not on my face. I already have a roundish face.  Even when I'm skinny as hell, my face is a little chub chub, although some other pple may disagree.  I am very hard on myself and that's why I strive to look good with fashion, cuz it's now about looks all the time, it's about appeal & presentation.  That's where fashion comes in and where Nicole has helped me.

Her style never faded either, she always looked like a fashionista when pregnant.

Just a bump! Unbelievable. Love her so much!

She brought out an inner style in me that I didn't even know I had.  Granted, I have/had style whether I'd be dressing like Jessica Simpson for one yr or trying to get Britney's look.  But her line, like I will always preach, brings out the bohemien, eclectic, trendy side in me.  The oversize cardys, the jackets, the blouses, the jewelry...it's all so different & when Nicole wears her clothes, they're sold.  I've said it before and I'll say it again, she's a walking advertisement b/c she actually likes & wears the clothes she's promoting & selling. 

Anyway enjoy the interview, like I always say:)...Nicole talks about her new book, "Priceless", which I can't wait to get for xmas, the upcoming wedding to Joel, Harlow's Birthday & more! Who doesn't have fun on Ellen's show?

The Madden/Richie family.

"Priceless", Nicole's 2nd book. 







...last thought on Dexter finale.

I just wanna say that even tho I love Dexter so much & I watch it loyally, I liked the first 4 seasons better.  This was good too, a lot of close calls, but not too, too much.  It could've been worse.  It was a good finale b/c in every season of Dexter so far, since season 1, they wrap up every season.   They don't really leave cliffhangers. Leaving the fans or me so frustrated b/c you have no idea what's in store for the next season.  And so far no disappointments, just a little one with this finale.  But it was consistent with Dexter seasons, (the wrap up). 

"Dear Dexter",
                I can't wait tll next year to watch the new season...in the meantime, I'll watch reruns on DVD.  I do that with all my favorite shows, listed below on this blog.  So, I'm sure you're next season will be just as good as of all them!"
-Love, Kristin.

A "Pre" Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays...

This is my gorgeous xmas tree at my parents house.  We always have had the most stunning big as hell tree!
(Don't pay attention to the pple in the backgroud!)

So I've been talking so much about what I've been wanting to get for xmas this year. These WinterKate items, these HH items, plus the things I haven't mentioned I wanted.  Refer to previous posts concering everything I want to get.  And I'm posting about it b/c it's the season.  Gifts are in my head! I've also wrote about the items I know I already scored...so I want give a shoutout to who's reading.  I hope everyone has the best holiday ever, no matter what they're celebrating.  I hope everyone gets what they want! I'm sure everyone has a list for Santa.  Whether it just be happiness, family, or a good time...make it real and keep true to the meanings, although that's easier said than done.  We all know that.  Especially me! Instead of what I should be thinking about, I'm thinking about the presents!  And not just for me, even tho it's hard to tell if you kinda know me by now from reading, but for other pple too.  It's like: who's getting what? I got this person, this person...but I'm sure it's the same for everyone else because of the society & media today.  I mean between advertisments, internet, commercials/tv, etc..., I bet a lot of pple can get their head stuck in the gutter this time of year.  I'd like to try and not be like that, but I am.
 It was just my brother & I growing up together & we we're spoiled a bit.  I'm sorry, mom, if you're reading, but you know it's a little true.  We always got what we wanted...it was just the two of us.  No matter what they said, they always went way and beyond.  I'm very lucky and It's vey appreciated even tho It's hard to tell. 

Me opening gifts like a 3yrd old with new barbies, except in this case clothes.  Kinda pathetic:)

So Happy PRE Holidays!
May everyones wishes come true & and have fun.  And you know, I'll be back!
Want more pics of me digging into gifts like a baby? LOL

oh boots...

Jessica Simpson heels...ooh

New bag from Foxes, plus a shitload more, as you can see!

Showing off my fave TV series on DVD...you'll see I'm still on the floor like a child.

My parents...the best parents ever.

And btw...I love getting gifts for people, I just wish I was rich so I could buy my family/friends the same expensive "expectation", that I have! I would love to buy hubby the wardrobe of a lifetime, but I'm not there yet with money.  But I still do good!  Stay tuned for posts about gifts for others. 
Stay safe shopping pple & remember online shopping is da bomb!

(Xmas pics from 2009).